Disappointed again

These two days working at zi zai zhai had fun (: can forget all my troubles by working. I enjoyed working there. Come have some food I will be working on saturday and sunday from 5.30pm onwards. Woo~

Not as stress as delifrance. Hmmm can get some experience too.

Was sad and restless about an issue that I faced currently. I don't know for how long can I continue holding on. I don't know for how long can I really bear with it. Just that I am richer by a bit doesn't mean that I stole the money. It wasn't you all who gave it to me. I earn it with my own hands. Whatever you all are just oh so biased.

Not even reaching the full month after gaving birth to me, you handed me over to aunt. Weekends you wanted me to go back when I was small, but I refused so you threw me into the car. Even when aunt see it she is heart broken. Ez-link card, phone top up card and birthday bbq which one have I even asked money for it. Sometimes I don't even have allowance. Some people just got $20 and I got none for the day.

You requested me to show you something using computer so I showed, but the page was loading very slow and it doesn't appear so you scolded me stupid, un-comparable to your bro. I needed money for the dentist you ask me to give the rest to someone. You called me and ask where I am, when am I going to pass the money to that someone and I said I may not be going home so, in anger you kup my phone without even saying bye just because there is no money for that someone.

I did everything for the house when there are events, in the end what I get was scolding when I forget to take the cups ONLY while that someone is in the room. Forget to do something and you reprimand me for not doing it and ask me to go do it NOW. When that someone didn't do it you rather do it yourself rather than reprimand him for not doing it.

I shall stop giving a fuck to this house anymore. Everything I do is just not good enough. Money lost is also me. Next time I shall just say I don't have money, I am poor. Locking myself in the room and live in my own world. Speak only when needed, get out of room only when needed, communicate only when needed too. How envious am I when I see other kids being treated good. I only get treated good when I am with my aunt........raising is always bigger than giving birth....